Toolbox of Power

Let Your Voice Lead You

February 11, 2015

Toolbox of Power

What if our words were all that was left?

“Even in her death she inspired us with her words.”

I’m “sponging” up that little girls pain that was held captive by the terror group and reported to her parents as a fatal victim of an air strike. {KM} She smuggled out a letter to her American parents with the most inspiring words. Sorta like an Anne Frank Diary of sorts.

She wanted to give victims a voice. She wanted to instill hope into others. Baby girl, you succeeded! Here is a hopeful voice screaming from the rooftops! {I should include her name or the terror groups name, but ultimately I don’t want Google to link this to that. Her honor is worth more to me than to allow it to be tainted by such ways of finding.}

My lovelies, please know, your voice is the most powerful tool you own. Not the sound of it, not even the physicality of it, but the content behind it, your words, your sentiment, that my dears are what changes your world. Make sure that the toolbox you store your most powerful tool in is keeping it safe.

How do you use your voice?

Do you get loud when others are weak?

Do you allow your voice to speak to others?

Does your voice echo or saunter away?

What is your purpose?

Voice it. Write it. Keep it, Give it away, whatever. IT’S YOURS!

Don’t let louder voices trump yours.

You mustn’t have to be loud to be heard, silent voicing is perfectly allowable and successful in nowadays times. Your voice is your imprint on the world. Is your voice still growing up? Is it speaking mature content or middle school drama? Is it imprinting the world or is the world imprinting your voice?

How will your voice impact the world?

My voice shall remain hopeful and positive.

Livingoffcrumbs is hard some days, but at the end of the day, I am so full! It IS because of the way my voice is leading me. Hopeful and positive is what livingoffcrumbs is all about. Stay true to your voice, my friends. It will lead you to a full life. Livingoffcrumbs is enough.

J

 

The NEED Pullers

The NEED Pullers

Man the world can get hectic!

When the world is spinning out of control I sure find it comforting to settle back into my little routine!

I have been really trying to enjoy the smallest of things since starting this blog http://www.livingoffcrumbs.wordpress.com

This morning I sat down at the computer with my coffee and Good Morning America playing while the kiddos were getting ready for school. I normally sit down at the dining room table with my Smartphone and drink coffee. But this morning, I wanted to reclaim my desk office space into a creativity area rather than a drop off for every little thing (that no one knows where it goes) when trying to clear the table for dinner.

I found me struggling last week for focus. I was trying to recoup from all the sadness of the funeral I attended the previous week, and surrounded by being pulled in various directions.

The dog had to go to the vet, the girl had to go to the orthodontist, the other half has to meet with the banker, the boy has a play to practice for and I have get to attend, and the vehicle broke (so parts and repairs!). Along with all the other domestic goddess duties: dishes, floors, laundry, shopping, bill pay, animal duty, clutter detail. I love it. I truly do!

I wouldn’t mind dinner out, massages, bubble baths, candles, soft music, elaborate gifts, dancing, romancing, and all of the glamorous life! Except one thing….

I FEEL NEEDED! That’s right, in my life, other people actually NEED me!

My daughter’s favorite, brand new, Columbia coat ripped this morning while putting it on. She was so upset! She actually had confidence that (in the two minutes before the bus was to arrive) I could fix that! Not only did I get it sewed up, I got it sewed in time for her to wear it to school! She needed me to do that for her! Do I deserve a bubble bath for that, probably not because the “Love you, Mom” thrown hastily over her shoulder heading out the door was the “crumb” that I was filled up on. Ya see, this livingoffcrumbs stuff is easy! It’s not fancy smancy stuff, it is the little stuff that is important.

Although I get pulled in many directions, I know one only gets pulled by those that we allow ourselves to get pulled by. I love my little bunch pulling on me! That’s how I know I’m needed!

One of the greatest feelings in the world is to feel needed!

This livingoffcrumbs stuff is still enough!

J

My Sponge Theory

January 5, 2015

My Sponge Theory

This New Year is really allowing me to look inside with an honesty I’ve never given myself the energy to do.

A distant schoolmate that I was friends with on Facebook passed. I didn’t personally know this woman besides the few years in school. We were not adult friends outside of Facebook. I have taken this death rather hard. Her struggles were unreal with mental issues, which brought family issues. I have no details surrounding her death but my mind swirls with suspect and I cringe at how easy Mental Illness can pull a family down a dark unpromising hall.

Taking the kids to return Red Box movies….that low and behold we had forgotten to grab….I pulled over out of respect for a funeral procession. Trying to explain to the children why I was delaying the trip to town to pull over and allow the grief stricken to pass (knowing at least my little spongy heart was trying to absorb some of the grief that spilled over out of the procession), I completely lost control of my emotions, my eyes started a controlled Niagra that would have made the Park proud! I was full. So much pain! I was full of others pain…I’m not sure that makes any sense… but it wasn’t my pain.

My life is unbelievably full…I hope in my own little way, I helped those that I sponged up.
My children understood and I know in their own way they are sponges too. The slightest touch on my shoulder from the backseat my son says, “Mommy, you sure are a good Mommy for teaching us to show respect to those sad people. Thanks for that, thanks for being such a good Mommy.” I was FULL again.

This livingoffcrumbs stuff IS enough!

PS. We didn’t have the movies. We were missioned out for this life lesson…thanks for letting me share my mission of the day with you!

The beginning, a purpose?

December 30 2014

Another closing to another year! The days to 40 are getting ever so smaller. Did I think that these days would be so short….NEVER!

I’ve been thinking about this blogging stuff as a sort of saving grace for my lack of journaling. Journaling really used to make me enjoy writing. As of late, the only writing I’ve done has been grocery lists and bus notes!

I used to journal many moons ago, as I’m sure a gabillzion other bloggers did too. What makes me think that a reader would want to read my journal um blog? They won’t think I’m unique. What can I bring to them that they already don’t have? Me…am I enough… I’m not so sure I’m enough in my own life more-less anyone else’s…hence “living off crumbs”.

Does anybody “get enough” or do we “make due” with what we are given? Making the most of less is everyone’s goal, even the multimillionaires must make themselves feel “emotionally” full on whatever is giving freely from others, even they must learn to “make the most of less”.

I chose to be emotionally full…even when sometimes what we are given are nothing more than crumbs… some days only mouse crumbs are what are left. If we can make more with less we will be happier and be emotionally full with life and all the riches it has in store for us.

Are these types of revelations of ME enough to suffice a “BLOG” or am I opening myself up to another failed endeavor. Oh,,,the o so dreaded FEAR OF FAILURE! There it is a crumb, a crumb that can fill an emotional void, a crumb of past failure, do I nurture that crumb or crush it’s dream? Obviously I’m a dream crusher that lives of crumbs so here I go, a journaling blog of open emotions that I will suffice to say I’m going to make the most of less.

What are the steps to this blog stuff? Apparently if I want to make money at it, which it seems a lot of people have, I’ll have to do advertising on it.

{I don’t want this to seem like work I just really want to write about trivial nonsense and others understand and feel exactly where I’m coming from and if I can make a few bucks along the way that would be excellent dude!}

Step 1: Define purpose

Step 2: Domain name

Step 3: hosting

Step 4: wordpress/theme

Step 5: start writing

Okay so I’m starting backwards with step 5: I JUST WANT TO WRITE!…if others read it great! If I make money great!

So, here it is, my first backwards entry! I started on step 5. Hey a start is a start.

I should probably go back to my domestic goddess duties. The dishwasher, washer, dryer and all the other goodness of life that await me! J